In three short days we will be bringing in a New Year. Even though I can’t wait for this year to end, after some serious thought, I’ve concluded that it’s really not going to make much difference.
It’s so unsettling when adversity strikes a chord in one’s heart. My grandson was in the hospital this past week…for three long days. On one of those nights, so my daughter could go to work, I had to stay over with him. That night was already filled with fear and uncertainty because … well…my grandson had to be hospitalized. I had one of those very uncomfortable pull out beds to sleep on, so as I tossed and turned to find a comfortable spot I had some time to ponder the last few months of 2016. I had been laid off from my job at the end of September, been denied unemployment, which I appealed, but it took almost three months for the Hearing Officer to make a decision, and unfortunately I fell into a financial mess that I won’t be able to pull myself out off, at least not anytime soon. I had not planned on being unemployed ever again, but here I was jobless during the holidays, which always seems to make it worse. The nurses were coming in every couple of hours to check on my grandson, so sleep and getting comfy was not happening. Anyway, I was thinking about my situation and I realized the only change I could count on was the year changing. I was not being pessimistic as much as I was being realistic.
People tend to make New Years resolutions, but for me that never seems to work. I mean I can make personal resolutions like lose weight, or eat better, but in the things that really need to change in my life are really in God’s hands. Even if I do all the right things. Will I find a job? Will I be able to purchase a vehicle? Will I be able to stay in my home? It’s all about faith. Will my faith fail me in the coming months?
So much is in God’s hands. I know, that I know that… He has a plan for all His children, but where His plans will take me and when is what leaves me on the edge of my seat. This waiting on God can get discouraging. It leaves me feeling abandoned. It’s makes me feel like I missed something.And it never fails that the more the Lords reveals of himself to me, the harder the enemy strikes. Who will save me from myself?! ugh! My Lord, please come quickly!
Waiting on the Lord in the Word and in Prayer in 2017.
Be blessed one and all. Thank you for following me and reading my posts. Have a safe and Happy New Year!
