Wait. “Be still and know that I am God.” God

Honestly, waiting on God is not easy. It never seems to build patience. It tries our patience more than anything…because “we” wait with anxious anticipation that He will deliver us from whatever ails us…it is what we are trained to do…It can be a selfish kind of waiting. And when things don’t work out like we’d hope…well…often times we get mad at God. We question our faith, our walk, we may even question His existence, especially if we see that other Christians, who may not be as “Christ like” are being blessed. God is answering their prayers, so why not mine???  Waiting on God can be about answer to prayer, but waiting on God is truly about being still and knowing that God is.photo

Psalm 46

God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling. 

There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
He uttered His voice, the earth melted.

The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge. 

Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has made desolations in the earth.
He makes wars cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariot in the fire.

Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!

The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge.

And when God does move…He gives us grace to accept His will, to carry on. We surrender our selfish will for His perfect will. God may not provide the answer we want, or the solution, or the outcome, but God will always make the best move that will draw us closer to Him.

“Be still and know that I AM GOD!

Keeping Faith in times of trouble…

My faith fails me more often than I am willing to admit. Mostly, it fails me when it comes to me, because I have no problem keeping the faith for others. I am confident that God works in the lives of others, of those that I lift up in prayer, and that their struggles are designed to draw them closer to Him in a more intimate way. When it comes to me, sometimes, I feel like He does not even like me. I struggle so much, in so many different areas, but God does not see fit to open doors, or to open even a window to bring me out of these struggles, still… He provides, protects, directs, comforts, and gives me peace of mind, guards my heart and mind in Christ Jesus. His ultimate goal…to get me totally dependent on Him. I hear it often, that faith is not faith, until it’s all you are holding on to, well…at this point it’s all I hold on to, so when it fails me, I weep. It’s easy to keep faith when you have resources to work with. Lack, on the other hand, makes learning to be content in all situations quite difficult. Thank God for His faithfulness. 

It’s going through and coming through difficult times that builds character, the character of God, that is. Jesus said that His followers would suffer persecution. John 15:2, tell us that “He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.” I know that we cannot separate from this world, but we can separate ourselves from the love of the things of this world. The birds need to eat, the flowers need watering, so too… we need provision in this world. How does God expect people survive without a job, or basic necessities? Yet, He tells us not to worry about such things. 

I have learned and accepted that God can remain silent for a long time, and I believe that He speaks to those that are willing to listen.  These last days, it’s the rare believer that can call on his heavenly Father and have Him answer him. It’s the rare believer that truly hears from God. More often than not, when we call on our heavenly Father, we are not always prepared to listen. It’s like the whiny child that whines only to get his way…so goes our prayer life.

In His silence, I pray, Lord, I am here. How am I suppose to help all these people in need, when I have no means? There is so much need. Sometimes, I don’t even know what to pray for, or how to pray for certain people, or in certain situations. No one reaches out.

How can I be friends with so many Christians and still feel alone in my battles. They call me friend, sister in Christ, but In my situation, I too feel like an outcast, inadequate, insufficient, lacking confidence. Surely, I must be deep in sin…search my heart, my Lord.  It is overwhelming. It’s this whole idea of “toxic people” that even Christians have turned aside. No one wants to deal with “toxic people.” The poor, the weak, the downtrodden, the broken, the people You came to save…are crouched outside…like the paralytics, the lepers…all looking for something, they don’t know…You bring these people into my life, so I lift them up in prayer to You. It’s that their situation fails to change that Christians turn a deaf ear. If you will not allow me to help them, teach me how to pray for them.

So many people claim to know You. They call on your name, but their hearts are far from You. It’s quite evident with every word that proceeds out of their mouth. Still, all of us fall short of the glory of God. Have mercy on us. People are calling on Your name, my Lord. In the name of Jesus save us. Amen.


In these last days, in our ever increasing perverse and noise-ridden society, we have to fine tune our spiritual eyes and ears to see God moving about.  

At the beginning of the year, I committed to reading the Word of God, daily. Regardless. I am still at it. And everyday…I am amazed at how much the Lord reveals to me about Himself. I cannot contain all that He shows me. It’s so overwhelming. Scripture after scripture, that I have read over and over… I can’t count how many times, just come to life and the true meaning is revealed. Only a living God can do that.

Last night, as I was reading through Mark 14:51-52…

51 Now a certain young man followed Him, having a linen cloth thrown around his naked body. And the young men laid hold of him, 52 and he left the linen cloth and fled from them naked.

This scripture is not mentioned in the other gospels, so I wondered why the apostle Mark felt need to include this incident in his writings. The young man wore only a linen (FYI, there is commentary on the meaning of the linen, the type used in burials). Why was he wearing only a linen wrap? And that the other young men tried to lay hold of him. The soldiers were only there for Jesus. The fleeing naked? I read some of the commentaries on this scripture, but none that helped me understand, except for the significance of the linen. Could it be that when the time comes…that some will leave the faith, hastily…not realizing their nakedness before God? I don’t know, need to do more research on it. 

Also in Mark 14: 41-42

41 Then He came the third time and said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? It is enough! The hour has come; behold, the Son of Man is being betrayed into the hands of sinners. 42 Rise, let us be going. See, My betrayer is at hand.”

I have read this scripture, umpteen times, but last night I realized that we are to wait on God…wide awake, aware of our spiritual state.   He came back three times and each time found the disciples sleeping. He had been telling them that He would be betrayed by one of His own. As I read on, I am thinking, it’s like in today’s church environment, no one is quick to consider that someone could not be of God. People are caught unaware when stuff happens in the church. We are so busy playing church, preoccupied with the things of the world, giving little thought to the fact that Jesus is returning. Sure, we don’t know when, but He nevertheless told us to be ready, but are we really ready to face the living God? Seeking the things of the world brings on so many distractions. Gosh, it is not easy to be a Christian…it is a narrow road we walk on…but we have a heavenly Father that loves us, cares for us, and never leaves us. This scripture tells me that even though the disciples were found sleeping, Jesus did not reject them. Praise God!